sooo, I honestly don't care if any of you read this, I just need to get out my frustrations...
It feels like everytime I try to do a life change so I can save money and pay off bills and debts, something just has to happen.
First this month, it was my credit is too bad to rent an apartment that would dramatically help my debt. I would probably be able to clear everything up in a couple of months at the price it would be, but alas, my credit, after they told me when to come sign the lease, the changed their minds and told me no.. that I didn't qualify.
now I can't even leave the shithole I'm in until the end of may.. MAY?!?!?!?! that's an extra months worth of rent I was told I wouldn't have to pay, I was going to leave at the end of this month so that I could start saving money, since I had previously been informed that was when my lease was up.. Now my landlady is saying I can't leave until the first of june, and if I do, I still have to pay mays rent.. ughhhhh.. she also said that even if my lease is up at the end of april, it's too late in the month for a 30 days notice so I have to pay mays rent...
I hate this I feel as if i'm in a pit that keeps sucking away my life, and my money.

I am soo grateful for my boyfriend, my friends, and my family... I know there are some friends that aren't talking to me, for whatever reason. I know some people feel as if I have let them down, as if I have lied, and I am not going to say I haven't. What I am going to say is that it was unintentional. The past few months have thrown some curve balls I didn't expect, and I am sick of making excuses... I am sick of having to explain myself because thing after thing has gone wrong. I am sick of getting sick. I want everyone to know that if I owe you anything, it will get paid, I can't promise today, I can't promise tomorrow, because I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I do know that after I get things fixed in my life, that I will be able to, and with that I hope that when it happens it can restore some friendships.

happy spring